Thursday, 7 February 2013

Waiting Game

Still playing the waiting game. Why are you told one thing by the oncologist and it doesn’t happen. Why tell me chemo will start in 2 weeks when clearly it will be at least 5! There was no mention of the special kidney function test which took 10 days to get the appointment and then another 10 days to get results before anything will happen. Why do they do this? – you get yourself psyched up to start treatment and you are made to wait. Why not be honest and say 5/6 weeks at the start instead of messing with your mind like this? Right hand not knowing what left hand is doing once again. Can you tell the anxiety is getting to me?

We had a good weekend meeting up with Bernie, Norma, Louisa, Jon, Gaby, my darling Ethan complete in Ninja outfit. We went for lunch at the Rendezvous in Westerham – awfully slow service but good food. Later Bernie & Big Al shared a bottle of 1950 port which needed to be drunk! We popped in to see Chris & Mick before returning home on Sunday.

The weather is bright but still soooo cold and the winds have been vicious. But the bulbs are doing well and hellebores in full bloom so there are signs of spring.     
Beautiful hellebores

We have had mixed news amongst us mesowarriors this week. Jan had a very positive result at her last scan so I am delighted for her and Gary – they can now get on with enjoying life. Sadly Debbie received not so good results yesterday and will be starting chemotherapy again next week – we will support each other and walk this chemo route together. How I hate this awful disease.

And while I am at it I think Michael Gove is a twat!

Tess x


  1. Ooh Tess - can certainly tell things are getting to you at the moment. You just go ahead and let it all out (had to chuckle about your opinion of Michael Gove - sure you are not alone there).
    Love and support as ever.
    Beryl xx

  2. How frustrating Tess, grrrrrr and double grrrrrrrr. It sounds like some lessons in communication are called for. Glad to hear you had such a good weekend though and your hellebores are beautiful - no sign of them in my garden yet.
    sending you hugs and positive vibes as always my friend
    Claire xx
    PS I agree!!

  3. Fingers crossed for an early date and a good result on the Kidney test. Better to be safe than sorry but why do things have to take so long. I had my kidney function done on the Monday and Chemo the Thursday. Good to see you are in high spirits though Tess, love and hugs